indeed

things are starting to look better it seems, still worried tho

i just always looking everything with worst outcomes it is affecting me alot

Have you talk to your family doctor about this?

It seems like you might have depression

I know there are a lot of negative things in the world. I'm a pessimist in all but try to see the bright side even if it's just a bit.

well I don't know if i have depression or not i just can't be a positive guy i was like this since like 10 years ago and i can't much positive like others

I don't expect good outcomes instead i expect more of the bad ones, cause all the time things seems getting worst or just there never ever got a big chance of outcomes to most things

to be good

also i saw so much typing mistakes bruh

and also there's so many god damn bots around the chat these days

or just some weird ones

it's like everything were so much better even the vibe back then was better, not much bots or weird people around and everyone was happy

well not saying there aren't happy things but the environment was cleaner back then

4 years and so much changed even most old chat seems disappeared and never seen again

damn it has been 5 years

i thought it was only 4 man that is why i prefer the old days

everything changed so much

Ya lots of names aren’t in chat anymore

I used to chat with azure a lot. You might recall him

I think he’s been gone from chat for like 2 years now.

yea not much old chaps left these days, it feels like there's a generation gap here man

feels like all the old comrades are gone

if there's any old chaps i could recall for more than 4 years here there's less than 50 of them..

Guess i'm one of the old chaps then. Day 1 Bae subscriber after all :)

theme comes around ever once and a while. I've seen him more on a different vtubers channel.

I'll still support Baelz as long as she's here.

eh i just wish we could be here longer man, I don't what i would become if i am gone or never was here

i don't want to become someone else entirely since i am who i am now because i am here 5 years ago, i am afraid i would be entirely different if i was never here

i am afraid I won't be myself anymore if Bae is gone, i never really felt alive back then or ever feeling myself before i joined

i am afraid of losing feelings...

nothing really got me feeling anything besides the reality of death and boredom since like i was young

truthful words that i have been keeping to myself all the time by the way

things doesn't seems to have sny meaning before i joined

and after i joined i felt i am part of something and actually felt alive therefore i tried to be better

i couldn't be myself if everything is gone what worse is that i don't have much cared for

this all feels like a family to me here

i could get used to not having feelings back then but once i have it i could never want to be that version of myself again

i hope this week would be better

guess I can't be optimistic at all without worries, well i said all i can say

Just keep on trying

1 more day at a time

Don’t let it be

Good night friends

night

I'll listen to sickronii soon

Haven seen her stream in a while.

Sounds like Kronii's been having a tough time

visa issues

and missed flights